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Everything works
Tuesday, June 30, 2009 || 11:02 PM


And nine months later...

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I know your type..
|| 10:55 PM


Incase you live under a rock...lol I joke

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Brand New Eyes
Monday, June 29, 2009 || 11:57 PM

Paramore's third album, Brand New Eyes will be released on September 29, 2009 (hmm why does that date sound familiar?).
&Alexisonfire has been added to the Toronto date for Warped Tour '09

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Itfyaf? Llhafo!
|| 11:46 PM

So I've done nothing all day but play Sims 3, my new obsession, and eat chocolate chip cookies. I watched a bit of the Bachelorette, but I got pissed off when Wes started singing again. So I then returned to Sims again. My only excuse is that today was an ugly day to go outside and actually see the world. This is a pretty sad blog entry. Sorry folks!

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whoWHOwho?
Friday, June 26, 2009 || 4:01 PM


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Just another day
Thursday, June 25, 2009 || 12:21 AM

I have officially cleaned the five years of built up stuff in my room. It took me four bags of garbage to get everything cleaned out. I never realized how much things I've kept over the years stuffed into the corners of my closet, under my bed, hiding behind my door. It was actually kinda fun because I got to relive some memories while I was finding stuff. I found old doodles from french class waaay back in grade nine with Melea. I even found the paper/card that she made for my fourteenth birthday! I can't believe that was almost five years ago. Scary. Found old test and papers that I remember stressing over that mean absolutely nothing now. It's funny how that stuff back in the day was like the stress of my life. Now five years later I can put things into a better perspective. Because I don't remember what was on any of those tests and papers, but I remember all of the fun/happy/sad/exciting/horrible moments of high school. Most people either hated, loved or didn't give a crap about high school. I actually had fun. Ya there may have been some real shitty moments, but without those moments I wouldn't be this person. You may say that high school is nothing and post secondary or whatever you do after is really where you find yourself. But I think that high school perpared me for the change. It let me see what was wrong and right in my life. It let me know what I did and didn't want. It's like the prelude to what's next in your life. And I wouldn't change one moment of it if I could.

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So...this is it.
Wednesday, June 24, 2009 || 12:43 AM

Cleaning will slowly become my remedy. It keeps the mind busy so that it doesn't wander into unwanted thoughts. Thoughts that will soon become reality. My reality. I guess I put this in the deepest corner of my mind, hoping that it wouldn't reappear. But it has. I know I'm not suppose to worry. But I will. It's what I do. No matter what is said or done to make me feel better won't. I cannot be distracted forever.

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Stammering
Tuesday, June 23, 2009 || 1:19 AM


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OK!
Sunday, June 21, 2009 || 11:16 PM

Well I've been working these pass two days so I haven't been able to blog much. Friday was funfun. Celebrated the triple birthday for Kon, Lemos & Jien. I'll sum up the night in a few words. Antler hat. Liquid Cocain. OK! I gotta feeling...jagerBOMB. Dance dance. "Oh teenagers". Weedaholic? Such few words to summarize an eventful night that ended in rain and 15 mosquito bites. Some did stuff they regret, some did stuff they think makes them feel better, some said stuff that other others regret and some did stuff that was just random. As of now, my legs hurt from two days of work. My legs aren't used to the six hour shifts like they were before. Sad. And I can't seem to get the deli smell off of my hands. Gross. This week the weather is gonna be AMAZING. So I'm going to try and be outside as much as possible.
Stop clicking refresh and go and live your fucking life.

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randoms
|| 9:07 PM

Just watched Alexisonfire perform at the MMVA's & George had a wedding ring on. WTF?! First Dallas and now him? What has my world come to?

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Gotta Feeling
Thursday, June 18, 2009 || 10:54 PM


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I'm just a girl, what's my destiny?
Wednesday, June 17, 2009 || 2:09 PM

Ahhhhhhhh! So yesterday was AMAZING!! Bedouin Soundclash, Paramore & No Doubt were AMAZING! Every single one of them were awesome performers. The day started off with Melea and I having our "Hills" style lunch at Rich Tree. Sat there for over an hour talking about all the random ishh. We made our way to the ACC and took like 15minutes to dodge all of the creeper scalpers and actually find out which gate we had to line up in. Stood there for another hour, which felt like two hours. Then we finally got to go inside and that's where the excitment started to go into overload. Bedouin Soundclash performed first, but only for 20minutes sadly. But they played St. Andrews so I was happyhappy. Paramore was next. Melea & I were so pumped people around us probably thought we were psycho, but it didn't matter. Hayley was like non-stop energy the whole hour. The band was awesome and introduced Taylor as an official member, yay. I was just sad that they didn't play Hallelujah. But they were still awesomeawesome. No Doubt freakin' killed it! I've never heard the ACC get so loud, not even during a Raptors game. Gwen looks like she's still in her early 20's, this lady has abs &she had TWO KIDS! Even though I didn't know some of their songs, it was still awesome. All in all an amazing experience! Other random stuff: Saw some Fabio looking guy dancing with some girl, people sitting behind were getting VIP service throughout the whole show & saw two girls making out for like 15minutes, but they were stopped by security.

P.S. Paramore announced that they'll be back in OCTOBER!!!

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waiting...
Tuesday, June 16, 2009 || 1:28 PM

I'm just here. Sitting. Waiting. Sitting. Waiting. Ahhh I wanna leave now. The anticipation is killing, killing, KILLING me. Impatient much? I think so.

All right so you think you're ready? Okay, then you say this with me GO! We were born for this!

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29725, 8147, 7106???
Friday, June 12, 2009 || 2:56 PM

Well today is pretty much a normal day. Didn't really do anything productive. Woke up. Ate some fruit loops. Read Breaking Dawn. Checked my email. Read some more. Now I have to start getting ready for work soon. It's weird I haven't worked since like december or january. Now I have re-memorize all the of the codes again. Which makes me work slower & makes customers get annoyed, which makes me annoyed. Yay. But it should be fun. Friday nights are usually quiet, so I'll have time to catch up with my fellow loblaws slaves.
Life is like a photograph, you develop from the negatives.

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FIREFIRE
|| 12:41 AM


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Annoyed
Thursday, June 11, 2009 || 9:42 PM

This is getting kinda annoying. We are two people, not one. I am a girl, he is a boy. I like concerts, he likes comics. We have two different phones, with two different numbers. It doesn't hurt to use them. This may sound mean, but I think it should be said.

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thank god I'm a teenager and can still act like one
|| 11:28 AM

ughhhhh this is oh so very frustrating! If I keep mentioning something for months and start planning it and then when I'm actually ready to act on it, don't tell me that you're not "comfortable" with the situation. What the shizz does that even mean?! You have absolutely no concrete reason why this shouldn't happen. I'm 18 years old, going to my second year in university, and I'm responsible. I've never come home pregnant or called from a police station begging for you to bail me out. So what's the problem? Nothing. Nothing. You just hate situations where you can't be in control. Or have some say in what's happening. That's why you don't feel comfortable. I give myself three years. warning: I'm a teenager. I tend to vent. A lot.

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Confusion/Awesomeness
Monday, June 8, 2009 || 9:11 PM

Hello my fellow blog readers, if there are any people left still reading this thing. Heard some AMAZING news today. But I cannot spill until it happens, if it happens, hopefully it will! Otherwise today was a pretty normal day. My cold is getting better, I'm hoping it'll be gone by the weekend. This weekend I'm going to one of my nursing buddies bday party. I'm so excited because I haven't seen these peeps in forever. After spending almost 8months together and now I haven't seen them in over a month. I can't wait. Found out something today that makes me seem like a complete douche. Which I never intended for the situation to be, so now I've completed some damage control that hopefully worked. I hate awkwardness and exclusion. Honestly I think that if something is so bad that you don't want to be around a person I think you should hash it out and talk to the person about it. You can't always expect people to know what you're thinking, even if it seems very much so obvious to you. Enough about that rant. Get well soon to me!


Mina says hi!

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Signal Fire
|| 1:42 AM

In the confusion and the aftermath,
You are my signal fire.
The only resolution and the only joy,
Is the faint spark of forgiveness in your eyes.

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so sick
Sunday, June 7, 2009 || 6:50 PM

Haven't done anything but sleep all day.
I feel so sick.
But, my sis just bought me ice cream from the ice cream truck.
So all is good at the moment:)

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Doo wop, doo wop
Thursday, June 4, 2009 || 8:27 PM


very catchy I must say.

P.S. MAGIC vs LAKERS tonight!

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Eclipse
|| 7:19 PM

Look after my heart--I've left it with you.


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Tuesday, June 2, 2009 || 11:49 PM

So I am just here to write, though I have nothing to write about. I figured I'll just do the random stuff on my mind list again:
1. I'm reading New Moon again, and it's just as good as the first time I read it.
2. I've just been told I'm a "sad, sad soul". Thanks.
3. I'm actually sad that UFC: The Ultimate Fighter show is finished tomorrow. What else am I supposed to watch on tv??
4. Just ate a chicken quesadilla for dinner...yumm.
5. I have realized that I take too many naps, more than any normal human should.
6. There is a plan. And the plan is awesome.
7. I have a sudden urge to be nineteen, but I want to be seventeen again.
8. Frostys have become my new favourite craving..sorry chocolate milk.
9. ...?!?!...
10. I am busy doing nothing. yay
Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect. It means that you have decided to look beyond the imperfections.

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*BREAKING NEWS*
Monday, June 1, 2009 || 11:39 PM

And Kris said, "My name is Kim and I like penis".

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yay
|| 6:57 PM

FML

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